Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Being Real

Today is kind of a weird day. We were supposed to get our annual family picture taken after lunch. I spent the morning preparing everyone, like any good mom does before a family picture! Bathing the kids, getting everyone dressed, plucking my eyebrows...:-) Our friends, Miguel and Melissa, are in town today from Calgary. Joshua went to seminary with Miguel, and I think they did more than their fair share of creating controversy in the classroom! Then, Miguel met and fell in love with Melissa! They asked Joshua to perform the wedding ceremony and he agreed to do it. That was a year ago, in July. Now, they have a little one on the way! The plan today, was to have lunch and then, do a family photo session with Melissa, who is an amazing photographer! (I just discovered her blog today and it is a must-see! The pictures are so beautiful, they just might make you cry!) Anyway, Miguel e-mailed this morning to say that Melissa had spent half the night in the emergency room. They think all is well, but of course, they were exhausted. They still made the trip up here this morning, but felt it was best to re-scheduled the photo session. We had a nice lunch with them, but it was evident they needed a nap! Our family is going to Calgary next week, so we'll be doing the pictures next Friday. I can't wait! Melissa is so very creative!

Tonight we are going to Joshua's parents for supper. I'm happy I don't have to cook! Now I need to go do some housecleaning. There is much to do before our house guests arrive for the weekend. I don't feel like doing anything, though. I've been feeling very tired and lonely lately, in spite of the busyness of life. Lots of things going through my head and heart. Wanting to help Sara understand Math (even 2+2 would be a miracle right now)...feeling disconnected from my husband and praying for a way to break down the wall...missing my old friends...wanting to make a difference somewhere, somehow and feeling like I'm stuck in a hole. I need a day just to think and pray and process life, but that just doesn't happen. Life marches on and I try to keep up. It's been a bit overwhelming lately. I don't mean to put a damper on any one's day, but I've realized lately that I don't spend enough time being "real." Life is not about being happy and upbeat all the time. God created many different emotions for a reason. So, I share my feelings so you can know the real me, so I don't have to walk this life alone. After all, that's the name of my blog, "Sharing Life With Peggy." Maybe I could help myself and others a little bit more if I weren't so darn concerned about image all the time...

5 comments:

Uncle Rex and Aunt Debbie said...

I'm praying for you, Peggy. Just remember, these valleys of life have mountains surrounding them. And with God's help, you will once again be able to climb that mountain!

Nadine said...

ahh..Peggy ...I am so happy you shared with us...Being "real" is not always easy..but it is "real" right?..and all of us have those ups and downs but somehow and for some reason we keep it hidden as if not wanting to "hurt" others but our "hurts" might also help someone else to be real or see that they are just plain not "alone" in this world...
Keeping ourselves" hidden does not help us at all and if nothing else allows the "enemy" to have fun with our heads and thoughts...at least that is how it works for me...am I alone here on this one?
Your response to my blog this morning brought me to the big boohoo cry...yup it did....for a moment I felt cared and loved and not alone...isn't that what it is all about?
Thanks my friend...your "timing" was perfect...Thanks God!
Way past my bedtime right now...so I am going to go and try and "catch" up a bit....
Love ya sister

Nadine

GE is me said...

Peggy, thanks for being real. You aren't alone, in your feelings, in your life, etc. (I'm sure you know this, but it certainly doesn't change the way we feel) Just know that over here on the east coast, I'm praying for you. Praying that our heavenly father will show you, help you break down walls & just give you some quiet time with him.
Consider yourself hugged! :)
-Gail
p.s. what kind of learner does Sara seem to be? visual, auditory, or kinestetic(sp)? If you don't know- a good book/author to check out is Cynthia Tobias Ulhrich.(I might have the last name mixed up?) but I've heard on Focus on the Family w/Dr. James Dobson. She is funny & she has written books on learning styles.

Kerry Shealy said...

I'm sitting here with tears, Peggy. Oh, how I wish I could give you a big hug and not let go for a long time. I've been wanting to talk to you, and I'm afraid that I have been disobedient to God by not contacting you sooner. I have known all week that I needed to send you a message and check on you, but I let other things get in the way. Please forgive me. I'll send you a message on Facebook tonight, and if there is any way we can talk on the phone...we will!

I love you, Sweet Peggy!

Miriam said...

Thanks - I soooo appreciate your honesty. Makes me feel human too!

And I did get myself a Google account just so I could post with you!